Realizations of a sleepless night

Passed a very rare sleepless night with multidimensional thoughts and realizations. now rushing onward to workplace...

it is always important for us to look back in own life, to look back of our world... it is not easy to face the hardest moments of own self. it takes courage to deal the very inner us, and we are often terrified to even reconcile with our own self... we divert our mind and thus make our lives more complicated. very few problems ever get solved usually, but intellectual distraction from our past and death don't help.

it is always tough to acknowledge that even after those thousands of troubles, harsh moments of life, we are actually happy; the acknowledgement gives us peace in two ways - meeting the answer of a very fundamental question and the relief of searching back the self worth. may God help us.

25-08-2013 

Eid Night Reflections

​I just found tears in my eyes reading the words of Dr Tariq Ramadan, he told on this Eid ul Fitr. don't know why, his words go deep inside me. he is 'One True Mentor' of my life. the words he writes moves deeply inside my hearts, giving a meaning in several dimensions. truly, I get peace in this reading. It just gave me a wind in heart that I wasn't being able to find all day long. the spiritual essence I was trying to get from thinking, the words have shown me a way to find.

when I read him, I can feel the inner light of the writer, Professor Ramadan, who slowly moves through words to say what he intends. but travelling many ideas he is very well concerned about what he is trying to say, about the center, about the meaning. the center of his talks is the ONE, our Lord, our master. to love, to be loved, to bless and to be blessed.

I am often confused about my love. through a long way passing back at life, I have reached to a level where I rarely find meaning in many typical things. I sit often with me to redefine the concept of my love, my emotions. I really felt those line Dr Tariq said, prayers for those I LOVE, I HAVE LOVED.

I HAVE LOVED  part has a meaning to. people have left me, reasonable or unreasonably, naturally or unnaturally, but I had loved them once. from my heart. they are not here anymore but I owe them. they have taught me to grow. on this very moment, I show my respect to them, I pray to Allah for their safety and happiness. in the end, we shall all die.

"Life is Fragile." Love. Smile. Eid Mubarak

08-08-2013 

A Glimpse Of Jannah : Described by Suhaib Webb

"Imagine this: you’ve just crossed the Sirat (bridge over Hell) and made it to the other side. You are waiting for the doors of Jannah to open. Finally they open to the Prophet(peace be upon him) and you are in awe. Truly this place is as the Prophet described which “no eye has seen, no ear has heard, and the mind of no man has conceived”, [Bukhari]. What is the ground made of? It smells a little like saffron, Subhan’Allah! What are those trees with huge fruits? Is that a river of honey? Dip your finger in it, that can’t be honey! You’ve never had anything like it in your life. You try it again and it tastes even better. How is that possible? Ok, enough honey. Where is my house? As you are being escorted to your home, you see it’s not just a house. It’s a mansion! Not even Bill Gates had it this good, and you are told you earned it because you donated $10 for that masjid. If only you had donated more! Well this mansion is enough. You’re eager to start exploring. You enter from the front door with a texture that feels pearly. Are the doors made of pearls? Subhan’Allah! You walk in and there’s someone there. Is that your spouse from the Dunya? But they look different. They’re so beautiful, you’re mesmerized. You take their hand and walk out and you see that person who wronged you in the Dunya. Even though you forgave on earth, whenever you saw them, you’d still get a bit frustrated. But for some reason it’s ok now. It’s all good. Actually- you’re happy to see them. In fact, you can’t stop smiling. This place is awesome. You feel so light and airy. You feel as though nothing bad has ever happened to you in your life. You have peace. It can’t get better than this, right? Yes it can! As you walk outside your mansion, you see people rushing to go some place. They’re crowding around someone. Is that RasulAllah?! Without realizing, tears stream down your face, it IS Rasul’Allah! And he is more beautiful than any of the descriptions you’ve read. You embrace him. He smiles at you, and then you invite him to dinner at your house. You walk away, still in awe that you’ve just seen the final Messenger of God, and… Is that Abu Bakr (ra)? With `Umar (ra)! And over there is Fatima (ra), sitting with her mother Khadija (ra)! And there’s Mariam (as)! You overhear a conversation and it’s someone asking Salaah ad-Deen how it felt to liberate Jerusalem. And you recognize an accent, it’s Malcolm X! Finally, it’s the pinnacle of Jannah. Being with Allah. You actually get to see Allah. The highest, greatest most amazing pleasure that surpasses everything we’ve just talked about. Seeing your Lord, Most High."

- Imam Suhaib Webb